The air in the house had always carried a certain busyness. Perhaps a clatter of some sort as she organised cutlery or buttons or DVDs that she was never going to watch, or the hum of the washing or sewing or drying machine, or the indistinct babble of her chatting for hours on the phone to friends she barely liked but spoke to because otherwise she’d burst from keeping all that gossip inside her, or telling the cat off for doing something mundanely cat-like and in no way reprehensible (he’d always got the impression she had wanted the cat to be a person, maybe a substitute son in his absence, and she tried to mould it into something it had no hope of being, just as she had tried to do to him). And in the absence of this simmering background noise he could feel the silence seeping out of the carpet and walls, like a fungus, cold and damp.
Friday, 20 November 2020
Thursday, 19 November 2020
Lasagne
As the hours grew wiser, so the air sharpened its needles. As the warmth flowed to your heart from talk of old times past and things soon to be, so did it sap from your fingers and toes, a zero sum game. Venus, which was once just above the tall chimney on that house over there, was now in the middle of the wide open sky, above that tree over there, or rather, out in the open, dancing above Highbury Fields, in full view of your bench and of all the others, having wandered without so much as a text message to say “Don’t wait up for me, I’ll be home late.” Of course, you’d have said, “I’ll leave the key under the mat, there’s a lasagne in the fridge, enjoy x”, if only she had let you know.
Burger
And so she occupied her mouth with eating to disguise her disdain. Soft, wet pickles squeezed themselves out of her Whopper as it took the brunt of two of her many clenches, the fists and the teeth. The water from a tomato dribbled gaily down her jaw and beaded like dew on the soft faint fuzz of her chin. Mayonnaise and meat juices engulfed her fingers. And yet, she could not avert her gaze, and upon taking in all she could of this goliath bite, she reoriented her burger so that its buns were perpendicular to the tangent plane of the earth, mostly covering her mouth and nose, and she began to chew, gaze intact, so mechanically, hydraulically, powerfully, and automatically that she could not tell what was tongue and what was beef.
Wednesday, 18 November 2020
Church
It seemed to Gerry, at seven years old, as he craned his gaze upward to the distant vaulted ceilings painted dark blue, lustrous golden stars nestled between their beams, and down past spiral columns of sandstone and marble and granite and who knew what else, to the polished darkwood pews, and red velvet carpet, and sweet waves of incense smoke tumbling from curlicued wrought iron holders, it seemed to him that God must exist. For who else could possibly deserve to live here?
Tuesday, 17 November 2020
Dynamo
For a few months, the streetlights dimmed in sheets. Grids folded themselves down and backup generators faltered. Years ago, in other cities, the lamps had been replaced by flaming torches, held aloft by fearful mobs and, later, staked in the ground calmly, by the remaining few that were resigned to their fate. But not here. That was all over. In dimming waves of gentle quiet, the night reclaimed the cobblestones. Until finally, all but one had surrendered. All but one, atop a steep hill beside an empty wooden house, watching the city fall asleep, its only company the gentle hum of its dynamo.
Skitterbugs
He watched her strip the pulp from the centre of the reeds with the concave side of a teaspoon, sharpened at the rim with a whetstone. She split each one open down the middle by hand and ran the spoon from end to end, the insides of the plant bunching up like viennetta before falling to one side or the other, and then into the long grass.
“Isn’t that a waste?”
“Not worth keeping. No nutritional value. Dry as hell but can’t even burn it.” She looked up only very briefly after finishing one reed and picking up the next. “Besides, the skitterbugs love it. And when the skitterbugs come, the honeyrats come, and when the honeyrats come the rainowls come and gobble them up. And I’d sooner have happy rainowls out here than skitterbugs in my syrup, honeyrats under the floorboards, and an angry, hungry rainowl tapping at my window in the middle of the night.” She finished another and set it down, and looked at him. “Wouldn’t you?”
Tuesday, 3 November 2020
Cuckoo
He had chosen to arrive at 5pm exactly. He was never early, and never late: he had set his cracked leather watch—which he found in the roadside piles of tokens of the dead—to the morning news, to make sure it was always just right and to save any embarrassment. He checked it every day at eight in the morning, and in six years it had not skipped a single second.
She was stirring mincemeat with a wooden spoon, propped up against the kitchen island. At 5pm exactly, a noise penetrated the silence. She glanced up as the cuckoo clock began to cluck, exactly on schedule, as it did every day.
He stood in silent dismay as he felt his five rhythmic knocks being stolen by the clatter of the mechanical bird. Now he was late.
Thursday, 1 October 2020
Sand
She pulled off her right sock and shook out the sand, then turned it inside out and hit it fifteen or so times against the arm of her plastic chair, just to get out every last little grain. She lay it over her shoulder for safekeeping, and proceeded to do the same with the other sock.
“How did it go?” asked Sarah, having heard the lashes of undergarments against furniture and coming in to see what was happening. Eilidh didn’t respond. She took a shoe in each hand and bashed them together, and little pieces of beach dust rained down onto the floor, and she kept going until the rain ceased and only sound came out.
“I wouldn’t do that inside.” Eilidh looked up at Sarah, her eyes and lip beginning to betray her, as her face grew wet and red. Sarah didn’t waver. “I’ll get the brush.”
Tuesday, 29 September 2020
Or Something
At 5:39 Cora went to check on the chicken nuggets. They were still a bit soft and not quite as golden brown as she would have liked, so she closed the oven door again, forcing a billow of hot air onto her face that made her eyes sting slightly. She glanced at the nuggets through the halftone-dotted oven door to check they were safe, and rose back up with just her legs. She noticed the time on the oven clock. 3:46. She had always kept the clocks in the house exactly on time, and took a dim view of people who did not. There had been a power cut. Or something.
Kaleidoscope
I lay my pen on the table and play with the lid. I suck it in such a way that I form a little vacuum, and the lid clings to my top lip and dangles like a christmas tree decoration, or a misguided limpet on a dinghy, or a daughter saying goodbye to a leg that she knows she won’t see again for a long, long time. I trail my gaze up to the window and through the glass and slide it through the air. The evening autumn sun glitters through twinkling branches of varying wisdom, some trembling at the acceptance of their fate, a kaleidoscope of layers of red and orange and still-green, and my lip begins to hurt, and I push off the lid with my lower jaw and it falls to the page, splattering a tiny amount of residual ink.